Shoaib Malik and Sania Mirza.

Finally, the controversy ends.
I’m sure the after math of this whole complicated mess, has left everyone a little sad, especially Geo TV and Star News. The most disappointed of all the people would be the media since their TRP ratings had only increased thanks to Ayesha Siddiqui.

However, I’m still wondering, who out of all these three families, (Maliks, Mirzas and Siddiquis), has really gained. All of them have been terribly humiliated, including Ayesha, and even though she must be under the impression that she has finally gained justice and all, but it really seems that all she was planning to do was cause trouble and gain attention. I believe she could have sorted this all out respectably, by talking to the families concerned or by taking legal action instead of going to the media. Media has no power over legal issues, it is known only for exaggerating everything and had she been genuinely smarter, she would have wasted less time in thinking over different ways of how to insult shoaib malik and put more time in getting a quick solution to this mess which both she and shoaib had originally created.

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The Reluctant Fundamentalist - Mohsin Hamid

Funny isn't it, when you read a book, and when you eventually get involved in it completely, the characters' lives start imitating yours, their feelings start becoming yours and you then realize that what in fact you are thinking and feeling and the arguments you are having in your head are exactly what goes on in everyone's heads, and also the fact what you think you only experience, has actually been experienced before, and has been going for centuries, its just that you are very new to it.

Right now i probably sound confusing but all these thoughts have been going on in my mind due to the reason that i have just right now completed reading this really serious book, "The Reluctant Fundamentalist", and although initially i didn't really like it, as a matter of fact i was a little too quick to criticize it, i never gave the protagonist's character the time to develop. I had already become biased against him and had already formed an opinion of him and pictured him to be as someone i actually know and although it was very much like him initially, however i was wrong. I had been too quick to decide, and as the story developed i realized that the protagonist was just a confused person in life, someone i can relate to, someone that anyone can relate to, and the fact that all the mental anguish he was suffering with, is so common in our society and in our generation and particularly in my generation that while reading his story i could detach myself from the mental anguishes going on in my head and probably have a more positive outlook on life, also giving me the feeling as if i am some third person looking in, in my own life.

One-eyed Monster

i know i shudnt probably be doing this, but i so have to write about this first surgery experience. I just had an eye surgery rite now, not a big deal, apparently its a veryy common surgery and until this evening , i was soo totally kooL abt about goin through with it.

But when i was lying down on the bed for the surgery, thats when i started getting all nervous and scared, even thogh the doctor was very xperoienced and sure abt it, i was totally scared abt losing my sight...but thn it went fine, Alhamdulillah. My left side was anasthesized and i could hear everything what was going on, jus cudnt feel it, thank god!!!

Even the doctor was so ready to explain about how he was progressing with the surgery, how he was clamping the internals of y eye, and he wud have probably gone on, had i not stopped him...i have a very graphic brain, and i could exactly picture what was happening with my eye, and i definitely did not wanna noe it. I was trying all thought-stoping teechniques and swtichiing y brain to good memories, going to my "happy place", so that i dont have to visualize the surgery.

But the good thing is, it barely took more than fifteen minutes and now i am home, and i shudnt be staring at the computer screen for long...

Although i thing im still wondering, when y left side of the brain was numbed, surprisingly, all my senses were still actuve, basically, only my eye area was numbed, and nothing else was affected, so does that mean, the left side of the brain is almost useless, asin doesit only involve controlling left eye senses. Anyway, have to google about that!!!

Signing off now...cheers

crazy mind!!!

I am sure it must happen with everyone, embarrassing moments, but i don't think many people obsess over it or think over it as much as i do. Besides, i think i have a problem, i over think everything, even rite now, every sentence of mine has to have the word think, even the blog title has it!!!
i sometimes feel (just avoided the word think) that i might go crazy with all the amount of thinking i do, particularly, when i'm recounting my embarrassing moments, and thinking and re-running the whole episode in my mind, wondering why i did what i did!!!
Today was one of those days, i'm not going to repeat the whole scene, but i know i have to apologize to the person i was rude with, and i'm just waiting when I'll go to uni next, and bump into him by mistake, and tell him that, that day was really not a good day for me... i don't even know if I'll be able to frame a decent sentence in front of him if i meet him!!! Oh god, i wish i could just turn back time...